the more i listen to this song..the more i like it..."我的爱" by 蔡淳佳



This was the theme song for the channel 8 series "By my Side" or 不凡的爱 ...nice show...was touched by Elvin love towards Rui En...will i find someone who love me this much? i like what Elvin always mention in the show "只要 不放弃，就会有奇迹出现的一天“...will i find someone that love me so much like Buqun and Yuhang in the show?



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Woke up feeling like a millionaire
Walking down the street with the wind in my hair
All the boys stare, say I look so good
No, I'm not cocky but I knew that they would
Cause everywhere I go my life is a party
I don't have a worry, the sun keeps on shining on me
Look how it's shining on me, looking at me
All of their eyes are on me (All of their eyes are on me)
And I....

I feel so beautiful, (I'm lovely)
Can't no one tell me no (I'm fancy free)
My life's a circus show (Its's lovely)
No matter where I go (I'm fancy free)

Dee, dee, dee, dee
Dee, dee, dee, dee, dee, dee
Dee, dee, dee, dee, dee, dee, dee

I'm fancy free
Feels just I'm on a shooting star
Made my wish to be a super star
If I'm wrong and dream don't come ture
I'll just make today what I want to
Have your say, you can't break my high
You should join me on my carpet ride
Let's play, what you sat?
Say yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
It's so easy, see that's your problem right there
You 're too cool, (Yeah, yeah)
I'm just tryna have fun, stop worrying so much
And just follow me
Cause I feel so beautiful
Can't no one tell me so
My life's a circus show
No matter where I go
I'm fancy free



In the morning when I reach Office
Wa, Fri(25/09/2009) I was on leave and Sat(26/09/2009) was my off day...guess how many emails there are in my outlook express today when I turn on my Com? There are a total of 43 emails...faint..haha

At bout 11am
Wa...its coming to 11 and i just finished replying all emails and acting on the emails...fainted...half day gone...



“I’ve done __ stupid things out of 37″ in the title field.

STUPID TEST

[ ] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were talking
[ ] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were NOT talking
[X] You have ran into a glass/screen door
[ ] You have jumped out of a moving vehicle
[X] You have thought of something funny while walking by yourself
[X] Laughed, then watched people give you weird looks

So far:3

[ ] You have run into a tree/bush.
[ ] You know that it IS possible to lick your elbow
[ ] You have tried to lick your elbow… a few times
[X] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle Twinkle Little Star have the same rhythm.
[X] You just tried to sing them.

So far: 5

[X] You have tripped on your shoelace and fallen.
[] You have choked on your own spit .
[] You have seen the Matrix and still don’t get it.
[] You’ve never seen the Matrix.
[] You type only with two fingers.

So far: 6

[] You have accidentally caught something on fire
[X] You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your
nose/eyes.
[X] You have caught yourself drooling.
[] You have fallen asleep in class and fell outta your chair

So far: 8

[X] Sometimes you just stop thinking
[X] You are telling a story and forget what you were talking about
[ ] People often shake their heads and walk away from you
[ ] You are often told to use your “inside voice”.
[ ] You use your fingers to do simple math

So far: 10

[X] You have eaten a bug (Dead ones - during church Fear Factor)
[ ] You are taking this test when you should be doing something more important
[ ] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and
didn’t realize it [i went to macritchie from yewtee with my pe shorts the other way]
[X] You’ve looked all over for something and realized it was in
your hand
[ ] You have ran around naked in your house.

so far: 11

[ ] You repost bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen to you if you don’t.
[X] You break a lot of things.
[X] Your friends know not to use big words around you.
[X] You tilt your head when you’re confused
[X] You have fallen out of your chair before

So far: 15

[ ] When you’re lying in bed, you try to find pictures in the
texture of the ceiling or wall
[X] The word “ummmmm” is used many times a day.

TOTAL: 16



Monday me and my cg went to Buona Vista in the evening to celebrate Xiao Lu's birthday...that day Jing Ying was sitting beside me during dinner and we had a great chat..this gal is really cute..like to listen to emo songs..haha...then we say find one day want go ladies night together and also ktv...hmmm...then when going back, i find her a bit upset upset so i dropped her a sms...then i tol her not to listen to too many emo songs...haha...from there we chat a bit and she mentioned i like a sis to her...this gal so cute...go share in cg today..during testimony say at first she thought i hard to get along with and i thought she very proud...but after monday, she felt this yuan fen between us and say i like her sis...haha..at that point of time..i was kinda paiseh..but very happy..thannk God for this friendship or should i say sistership...she is actually very lovable after knowing her...hope our friendship gets better and better each day...haha



Quite upset de...my manager will usually borrow thumbdrive from me and return, cause he lost his thumbdrive few months back...as i have 2 thumbdrive in my office, i would always lend him the one i din do my work in...but that one have all my pictures inside..it contains photos of my water baptism, of my days in SOT(Bible School), my days in church, most of the photos taken since I was 16 yrs old, about 8 yrs...yesterday he misplaced the thumbdrive, we search everywhere in the office but could not find it. he recalled taking out from the conference room after using and putting it on his desk, we checked the cctv in office but no clues, we search again but could not find it..aunty pantry and chris even search the big dustbin but also found nothing...its just a 1 gb thumbdrive, but its the photos in there, and also the meeting info they had in the conference room. Pray that i be able to find my thumbdrive, actually i not so sad de, but as i think of all the photos which bring back the memories, i felt more and more sad..



My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.

Weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning.

The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit



Last few weeks had been really bad for me. Got involved in this relationship with Mr X. But we were only together for 7 days (to be exact 4 day, the other 3 days he was cold towards me). My heart breaks when we broke off, I cried badly. After a few weeks, a friend told me he could not forget his ex-girlfriend, they were together for 10 years. Then my question is in the first place, why start? Its all over now and we are good friends.

I wanna thank a few friends who had really been there, my colleague – Benedette & Ann, they had really been there, listening to my nonsense and buying me chocolates to eat. I wanna thank my Jie (Angeline), though she kept rubbing salt into my wounds, but I know it was for my own good, cause I never learn my lesson. I wanna thanks Kai Lin from my zone, though she dunno what happen, but she read my blog and left me a message in facebook to ask if I am ok, she cared and was concern, I believed there are a few others who read my blog but only Kai Lin left me a message. Thanks gal, I really appreciate it. Thank my ushers “mei mei” – Yolanda, Priscilla & Wendy.

Thank my cell leader Joanne and my connect group leader Selena, though I only let you guys know after the whole thing is over, but I believed you guys kept me in prayer and will continue to do so. Had a very very long talk with Joanne yesterday after fellowship with cg. I also wanna thank God, for being there for me, sending different ones around me when I was at my most down period. Thanks for sending Pst Phil and Pst Kong to preach timely messages that really helped. I will stay loyal to this relationship I had with God.

Was still a bit depressed on Saturday, went service on Sunday not knowing what to expect, presence of God hit when we sang the worship song “Above all else” & “The God I know”.



No eye has seen
No ear has heard
Unfailing love
Far beyond words

The cross I see
Your blood redeems
My Imperfection
Your hands divine
Come shape this heart of mine

Here I stand, thirsting for you
Here I am, surrender to you
Let my life be you clay
Mould me in your way
Here I stand, desperate for you
Here I am, a vessel for you
Let my life sing your praise
Bring honor to your name

Beauty unfolds
Joy overflows
Your grace begins
This treasure within

Above all else
Above all else
We exalt you
We exalt you



Because of You
I was born again
Because of You
I’m ransomed by Your grace
Because of You
My heart has found a home
A refuge for my soul

Because of You
Sins are washed away
Because of You
Heaven knows my name
Because of You
I can live again

You’ve broken every chain

Unfailing Love,so unreserved
You gave Yourself on Calvary
And now I stand, forever free
My Saviour rescued me

Now heaven, be open
Our God is, unshaken
We worship, Christ risen High above
Now heaven, be open
All kingdoms, all nations
Declare that “You are God”

During the preaching of the word, I cried. During Altar call, I told God that I lift everything up onto his hands and ask Him to heal me, not just in my body but also emotionally. Felt so much better today.

Mr X, dun think you have my blog anyway or facebook, but thanks for giving me that 4 days, I was very happy. These will be my memories.




In the arithmetic of love, one plus one equals everything, and two minus one equals nothing.

It is better to have loved and lost than never to have lost at all.



Love is almost like suicide.
You give so much to that special someone
that you sometimes end up killing yourself inside.



I`m tryin really hard n0t
t0 cry over y0u cuz every
tear is just a reminder of
h0w muCh ii can`t let go



Why is it no matter how much pain the heart
endures by holding on, the heart refuses to let go?
Why waste your time getting hurt by someone when
somewhere out there , there’s someone waiting
just waiting to make you happy?



Love is like a puzzle. When you're in love, all the pieces fit but when your heart gets broken, it takes a while to get everything back together.



If the heart is one of the strongest muscles, why is it so easy to break?



It's so curious: one can resist tears and 'behave' very well in the hardest hours of grief. But then someone makes you a friendly sign behind a window, or one notices that a flower that was in bud only yesterday has suddenly blossomed, or a letter slips from a drawer... and everything collapses.



There are times when I cant decide whether to see you or not, I want to see you because I miss you but there are times when I dont want to see you because everytime I do, the fact that you dont see me the way that I see you hurts me even more ...



its sad when you meet someone who means a lot to you,
And you find out in the end that it was never meant to be,
And you just have to let go...



When you like a boy, all you do is wonder "Does he like me?" and when he finally asksyou out, all you do is wonder"When is he gonna break my heart?"



People say not to cry because it’s over but to smile because it happened but how can you do that when just thinking of the good times makes you wanna cry?



There are things that we don't want to happen but have to accept, things we don't want to know but have to learn, and people we can't live without but have to let go.



The weirdest thing happened this morning...I woke up with tears in my eyes...and one rolling down my cheek...and I knew I must have been dreaming of you.



Yesterday is just an amazing day, on Friday actually i was thinking whether i wan to go in Malaysia cause my colleague is getting married and we are all invited, at that time i still dunno that Pst Phil is coming for the weekend as i missed cg and svc last week, i decide not to go for the wedding.

ytd during svc, the presence of God was very strong, the 2nd worship song, dunno whether is a new song or they sang it last week, i just went on my knees as i sang, going thru some tough time in life now, A movie star from Indonesia shared his testimony and as i listen, i was touched, once again, God's presence was there. I knew that God is using this svc to speak to me, but i dunno what, i kept my heart open. Pst Phil preach about the way satan/devil can enter into our lives, and he had a "mini deliverance", we no need respond to the front but just repeat a prayer in our seat. about 1-2 months ago, i was telling Minghui i think i need some help, i hated my dad till a point i wish he is dead or i can kill him, my anger prob became worse and i hate the family, i hate my dad, after repeating the prayer after Pst Phil, tears kept flowing down my cheeks, i just kept crying, and i felt something lifted out of me, i kept coughing (should be coughing those hatred & unforgiveness spirits out), i felt so much beta after svc, will keep on praying so that the devil have no room/vacacy in my life.

went fellowship at Bedok and was walking around for 2 rounds, dunno what to eat. haha...saw Sheila (my boss's insurance agent) and her husband who is a pastor in another church, she intro me to some nice food...thank God for her else i would have buy the duck rice which i dun feel like eating..hee..

met up with Jonas and Cindy after fellowship at City hall, had a coffee at TCC and proceed to settlers cafe at Clarke Quay and stayed there from 6-10pm..we kept changing games in the beginning but stick to a game called "True Colors" for 2 hrs, we kept laughing throughout the game..haven had a a long time laugh so loud and happy, really so relieve of all the stress at work.

Reach home at 11 and i dun feel tired, the amazing thing is i went ktv with colleagues on sat till 4 and reach home at 4.30, slept at 5pm, woke up at 7.30am. but i dun tired ytd at all, and today i am still energetic. God is good, he is
1. Jehovah jireh (Gen 22:14) “The Lord will provide a sacrifice”
2. Jehovah rapha (Exodus 15:26) “The Lord our Healer”
3. Jehovah nissi (Exdos 17:15) “The Lord our Banner”
4. Jehovah shalom (Judges 6:24) “The Lord our Peace”
5. Jehovah raah (Psalms 23:1) “The Lord our Shepherd”
6. Jehovah tsidkenu (Jeremiah 23:6) “The Lord our Righteousness”
7. Jehovah shammah (Ezekiel 48:35) “The Lord is Present”

Its been a long time since I last blog...sorry guys...hee..a lot have happened for the past few months...

Once again, I am in the Dinner & Dance Committee in my work place, last year do le thought this year can relax, but apparently those who got selected last yr to be in the committee either have left the company or they have request to withdraw from the committee due to increased workload in 2009, so here i am, again in the committee...but actually my immediate superior din really like it, and one thing was my fault was i agree to it without discussing with him 1st, he din really want me to be in the committee due to some reasons which are reasonable...but then i dun want to back out cause they really cannot find people le, everyone is busy but we just sacrifice our lunch time and weekends to discuss bout D&D things, i din dare and dunno how to tell my immediate superior that i was still in the committee, after much praying, after a few weeks, i drop him a sms on a sat saying he might have known i am still in the committee, its not due to disrespect that i din tell him earlier, its just that i dunno how to tell him, well, i was scared as i am waiting for his reply, but it turn out fine, everyone in the committee say is i myself think too much le...my immediate superior say as long as i can finish my primary tasks, he is ok with it and ask me do my best in the committee, dun throw his face..haha... but then, after taking hte role of a committee members, stress came and i started to do ot again after fleeing from ot for months...haha...

my immediate superior is back in reservist for 2.5weeks, i have to cover his stuff + my on hand things + D&D2009, I already stayed back for ot on thu and fri, but good for me is I have a friend who is nice to wait for me. He is from Thailand and he is here for training, he will go back to Thailand in Oct and start work in our depot in Thailand. His nickname is Bank...haha...all of us were saying we are DBS, OCBC, UOB and others...Bank told us cause some of the thai name is so long, so all of them have a nickname..his real name is hard to remember. Bank is a nice guy, haha, he make me have a new perspective of Thailand and he is really a very gentleman. cause we are quite on good terms, some of the colleagues keep pairing us up together, but we are just good friends. yesterday i was very stress at work and i cried, most of the colleagues went back on time but i need to stay for OT, i know Bank was around and he missed the company transport. most of my colleagues who stayed behind left at 6.30 or 7pm. 2 colleagues got a lift from our boss and i say i will stay cause i cannot finish the work on hand, after a min, one of the colleague say Bank is still ard downstairs waiting for me. i ask her to ask Bank to come up, he came up and say he thought i left already cause he saw some of my friends leaving. then he just sit in front of me and waited till i finish my work before going for dinner together. thank God for this friendship during this stressful period of time.

later i be going pulau ubin to recee the place for our D&D and staying over the night to discuss about everything, missed cg cause need ot ytd, have to miss svc cause wun be back in time for svc...i miss my members...haha

Have been listening to the "Fly High" Cd and practising this song for our church anniversary next sunday...this song is originally from an Indonesian song "Inilah Hidupku"...for those without cd can listen to the song in this link

我獻上自己

我只愿能更多亲近你
依偎在你同在里
更贴近你的心意…
我只愿能全心依靠你
永远不离开你…

是你赐给我生命气息
赐给我温柔的心
让我能全心相信…
世上无人能够取代你
一生只愿为你…

主我献上自己
成为爱的器皿
来完成你旨意
一生永不放弃…

主我献上自己
求塑造我生命
指教我你命定
我全人只为你
一生只愿为你…



Recently got to know this shop in Plaza Sing through my cg member-Karyie, the name of hte shop is Etude House, They sure know how to capture the hearts of the gals, Trudy and Karyie and Li Jun went there 4 weeks ago and spent $50 over each person...Joanne Went 3 weeks ago and also spent slightly more than $50, I went yesterday and spent $90 for a eyeliner, eye shadow, toner, facial cream, nail polish remover, eye n lip make up remover, cotton pad, a nail polish, think thats all...haha..never spent so much in a shop before...well..spent above $50 and get a lifetime membership card which entitles you a 7% discount on every purchase...so the few of us got the membership cards now...haha...interested to go back to buy 1 of the products that deal with dark eye ring and some nail polish but think after getting next month pay...hee..one thing i like is that is this sale gal by the name of Karyn, she is a nice gal...she recognize us after our 1st visit there...and she remember trudy's name when she wrote down her name for the membership card 4 weeks ago, we were quite surprise when she say trudy's name...and she is not those kind of sales gal who will push you to buy their products...hee...i love this shop...and i think the thing they sell, the price are reasonable..hee...here is a link more bout that shop...http://www.makeupstash.com/2009/06/etude-house-singapore-price-list.html



PS: everytime we go this shop, me, karyie and trudy will fellowship for hrs at PS...ytd we chat for 2-3 hrs eating cheesecake at mac(Trudy's ideas)...see how she cut the cheesecake when she post the video on facebook bah...hee...



this period of time have been really testing and trials for me...i justncry easily...some friends ard me say i emo....have been thinking a lot thesefew weeks...

y did God put me in this family...where there is no love,no communication in the house....everyone just treat it like a hotel...when i face problems at work..who can i share with at home..NO ONE...have anyone ever try to understand what i m going throught?after a stressful day at work...icome back to a home where there is no one..cannot even watch the tv to relax...cause will be scolded the next day...can't just stay home and rest...i got so many days leave but none i can jsut stay home and rest...cause of dad's weird behavior..

in workplace..whydid my closest friends suddenly not talk to me months ago...found new friend but yet leaving soon..my good friend clara inHR....nw i also doing a bit HR...i felt stress...really stress..

change to a nnew cg comingto 2months..still trying to adapt to the new cg..though things are getting beta...but....haiz...

tired of crying...God...help me...get out of this wilderness



SATU HAL YANG KURINDUKAN YA TUHAN
ONE THINGS HAVE I DESIRED IN MY LIFE LORD

SELALU BERADA DI DEKAT-MU
TO THIRST AND HUNGER AFTER YOU ALONE

DENGAN SEG'NAP HATI DENGAN SEG'NAP JIWA
WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL WITH ALL MY STRENGTH AND LOVE

KUMENANTI DI HADIRAT-MU
TO WORSHIP AS YOUR GLORY FILL THIS PLACE


LEBIH DALAM LAGI KURINDU KAU TUHAN
DEEPER IN LOVE WITH YOU DEEPER IN LOVE WITH YOU

LEBIH DARI SEGALA YANG ADA
I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING IN LIFE

LEBIH DALAM LAGI KUCINTA KAU YESUS
DEEPER IN LOVE WITH YOU DEEPER IN LOVE WITH YOU

KUMENGASIHI-MU
OH HOW I LOVE YOU LORD

God, i love you more than anything in life, help me to overcome what i am facing..God, i want to trust you in the area of relationship, God, i trust in you, that you will provide, God, help me to love you more and more each day. i never want to leave you ever again.



Today marks the last day of the morning prayer for this period. Pst Kong was there every morning to lead us to pray in the spirit from 6.45-7.15am, then he will share a verse with us before we pray on our own for 15-20 mins, then worship and pray together.

Philippians 2:12-13
Therefore, my beloved, as you have always obeyed, not as in my presence only, but now much more in my absence, work out your own salvation with fear and trembling; for it is God who works in you both to will and to do for His good pleasure.

Thats the difference during school holidays and not.when its normal school days, i wake up at 5.45 and reach church at bout 7, but during scholl holidays, i wake up at 5.45 and i reach church at 6.30am...haha...this week morning prayer have been great and refreshing...though i wake up early, but i dun feel tired at all during work, instead i have more ideas to my proposal and more effective in work...hee...tonight looking forward to song of solomon bs part 3 by pst kong...

ytd chat with Eunice over the phone..so happy...cannot believe she will be back in less than a week time..i want a big bear hug..haha...eunice, i going to intro my new cgl-Joanne to you :)



so happy today...hee...recently in work, my performance have not really been up to the standard of my director and some of things he is not very happy with it...haiz...was feeling upset, down and discouraged about it...was thinking am I really suitable for the executive post?

last Fri i did a presentation of my colleagues from Vietnam and my director was inside...normally this presentation is done my manager but cause he was on leave, i had to present it on last fri...but after that, i din know how well/badly i did cause din receive any feedback...till just now...my director was telling my manager that i did a very good job..he told my manager that he be surprised how well i can present...even better than one of our marketing executive who always presents our company profiles to customer..my manager say too bad he was not there to see how i have presented..

he told me my director wants me to present it again but in chinese next fri to one of our future colleague from China...stress cause this time my manager be there too but happy to hear the compliments..was telling my manager have been receiving some negative feedbacks and felt stress...he say stress is a good thing..haha...then i say finally something good..he also very happy for me...cause once my director complement...means i have really done well :)

Serene
God's child
loves♥
18th November 1985
Finance/Admin Executive

To lose weight
Go Bangkok(Going on 17-19 Jan 2010)
Go Taiwan
Go Perak and find Ailyn(Going on 20-25 Feb 2010)
PSP slim
Camera
Go for facial
More Formal Clothes
More Spiritual Books
Nokia E72

N351
*Joanne*
*Selena*

Et Zone
*Pst Kong*
*Pst Phil*
*ET Zone*
*N317*
*Aaron*
*Aileen*
*Angeline*
*Amber*
*Bro Ed*
*Brandon*
*Clara*
*David*
*Eleanor*
*Elle*
*Flora*
*Gwen*
*Hansheng*
*Huiwen*
*Hui Ru*
*Jane Koh*
*Jasmine*
*Jean*
*Jerb*
*Jin Lian*
*Joseph*
*Justin*
*Justine*
*Liang Wei*
*Louis*
*Louisa*
*Nat*
*Nick*
*Perrine aka Snow White*
*S.A.L.T*
*Samuel*
*SeeWan*
*Shing*
*Si Jia*
*Valerie*
*Vera*
*Wei Jie*
*Yun Tian*

Ushers
*Cass*
*Germaine*
*Ivan*
*Judy*
*Michelle*
*Pam*
*Pris*
*Wendy*
*Wyeline*
*Yol*
*Yun*

Beloved W20
*Val*
*Yin Xiang*

Colleagues
*Celeste*
*Mariah aka Xiaomei*
*Sharon aka Mummy*

SP Friends
*Joel*
*Jonas*
*Rena*
*Shirleen*
*Victor*

Celebrities
*Sun Ho*
*Jeanette Aw*
*Joanne Peh*
*Dai Yang Tian*

Blog-Shops
*Rosenza*
*Ival-Dollhouse*
*JJ_Fashion*
*Just4U*
*lets shop*
*SoulRecipe*
*starbuys*
*Yaysayers*

Others
*Damian*
*Charlene*
*Jane Tor*
*Liwei*
*Rachael*
*Terence*
*Lulu*








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